future job..

so lately i have been thinking how awesome would it be if i got a job at like one of the worlds famous magazines like. its always been a dream of mine to work there but with me wondering and keeping my options open for the future what should i do, should i become a Fashion Journalist? work at vogue and make that dream of mine come true. or become a fashion photographer and work all over the world and enter my work for vogue to look at, i know probably none of this will happen but it could you never know.


what are your dreams and ambitions, would love to know?

sunday events...

so today it is Sunday the 18th November, and the time is 9:15pm, well whilst i type this up!

so today i went back to the cinema again! to go see Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2 Again! i know but after how i reacted the first time i had to see if i was going to react the same again. so guess what it was even better than the first time i watched it because i watched it more detail and i wasnt as tired as the first time. (i have another blog post from Friday i think which explains what happened when i went to see Twilight).

but yes it is absolutely brilliant i loved loved loved it.

ALSO...

lately i have been rocking this jacket my mum brought me last Christmas (i think). at the time i didnt really like it as it wasnt really my style, but now its kinda vintage, retro looking and it just fits with all the other clothing i am wearing. (i will attach a photo of it).

Righto im off to go finish reading up to Chapter 16 of this book i have to read for my English class tomorrow!

People just dont get Fashion..

this may sound silly but when i am sad, or just want to be by myself i always end up going up to my room or end up putting my headphone on/in my ears. i don't know it just makes me feel like I'm in my own little world its just nice. imagining yourself in a different world, or in a different life, most of my day dreams are me being a completely different person, completely the opposite to who i am today. 
not the insecure giant that sits here behind this computer screen, writing his emotions over the Internet as he doesn't know any other why of expressing it. its kinda sad that i cant really tell anyone what is going on my mind. and i don't want sympathy but i want to let this emotion out so it feels right just to type it out other than having to face someone face to face.

i try to make myself look nice, wear nice clothes, and today i wore a blazer over my shirt and then everybody took the mic saying i was wearing a suit, which i wasn't i was wearing Burgundy chinos, a white shirt and a black blazer, so everybody fancied taking the piss out of me, like i keep my mouth shut because i can probably say a lot worse to them but i don't, like literally i have no self confident so now i just don't want to ever wear a blazer even tho it looked nice, but all the chavs etc just took the mick.

i hate living with i live, everybody wears trackies or tries way to hard to be hipsters and its annoying and they take the piss out of my fashion sense. like literally last year i got told by a lot of people (mostly the girls) i had the best fashion sense, but like now my fashion is getting better I'm finding clothes that fit me and even tho i would love to be skinny I'm confident with my body and I'm not ashamed of it,  i will never be the smallest but im certainly not the biggest. but i will leave a picture at the bottom of my outfit and please tell me what you think!

Outfit;
Blazer - Daniel Hechter Paris
Shirt - Ralph Lauren 
Chinos - Next

PS - for the dirty mirror! 

Overrated Faces...

OK, this has been something that has bothered me since day one. 

i don't get why people do this and i don't get why they think it is cool to do it so, now i will explain.

i call it the Four Faces of Facebook. 

You have the pout, you have the peace sign, you have the upper lip and you have the tongue out face.

I'm NOT saying its everyone but it mostly the age range 10-15 when they pose in every photo. and yes i probably have done it a few times (the upper lip, and the tongue and the peace) but I'm older now .... ha ha....

but like it just annoying and now the fact 10-11-12 year olds are now joining facebook they are starting to do the exactly the same, i had some year 6 add me on facebook the other day, like seriously they are 6 years younger than me, i don't want you on my facebook talking how you are watching Cbeebies, like seriously... 

i think facebook seriously needs to sort out these problems as it CLEARLY states that user must be ----> 13 <---- OK get it children. 

and i think parents need to be more aware to. 

OK, so rant over what are your opinions? 

PS. below is a cheeky photo of ME demonstrating some of the faces.

Inspired...

Howdy!
So today i had my photography class and we have started a new project. what we have just started is a project on an Artist called David Hockney.

At the beginning of the lesson as Sir was describing what he will be aiming/looking for and describing briefly who was David Hockney and what he did.

At the beginning i thought this was a project i was going to hate, as i prepare to do portraits/fashion/editorial stuff, so i had to change my mode of working into becoming more artistic. But after i took my photos and printed them, i start collaging them together to make one big image. 

As time progressed and i had more ideas what i wanted and started it and finally got myself into it, my lesson ended but i have to finish it for homework, but i want to show you the piece so far, i got a long way to go i think i have another 7 pages of pictures yet to stick down but here it is!

PS  I know its not much, but as soon as I'm finished i will upload a picture for you all to see!

Controlling Family..

Do you ever feel like your life is trying to be planned out for you?

Its come to my attention in my life at this moment for me trying to figure out what i want to do when i leave school, i have two more years, but have no idea what i want to be or do.

Do i go to University? Do i take a Gap Year, Go Travel and then go to University a year later? or do i go get a full time job and never really know what i want to do?

But lately i feel like my family are trying to pressure me into going into Uni and study courses i don't want to study, it feels like I'm being forced, and i don't want to do it. If i did go to University it would make me the first of my generation of kids in my family to be going as my cousins didn't get high enough grades or choose not to go. so there is a lot of pressure for me and i have absolutely NO IDEA what or who i want to be. 

Do i go down the creative route and do something with my photography what I'm good at and really enjoy? or do i go down the business route like my family want me to and get stuck in an office with a boring routine of working 9 to 5? 

I have no idea and do not think at the age of 16 think that anybody my age would be able to figure who they wont to be, i have wanted to be a lot of things but always grew out of them or discovered that i didn't have the skills or grades to be able to do it. 

So like i was saying I have two years to discover myself and see what i want and to grow up. You may think that 2 years is nothing but if you think of it 2012 has flown past and i will have to start looking at Universities and be choosing courses before i apply next winter. 

I'm growing up to fast and wish time would slow down so i can figure out who i am and who i want to be but life isn't like that, you have to catch up and keep working to you get your goals.