Forever wanting to be a Vampire...

so last night the phenomenal Twilight Saga came to a close (not be confirmed yet, lets still have hope for another book and film.). 

so being all excited i was determined to go see the last installment but i didn't just go see the last one, i went to the Complete Twilight Saga. which if you did not know is all the Twilight films back to back until the last one which was shown at 5 past midnight. 
you think oh you idiot why did you sit in the cinema for that long (11 and half hours!) but to be honest i love these films and i always end up sitting then going, i want to be a vampire. well anyways as time flew by and all of the 4 films had been watched, it came to the countdown for the new one, the whole atmosphere was electric, this film that us Twilight fans have waited to see for over a year and we knew that we would be able to see it in under 5 minutes time. 60 seconds countdown began and everybody ran to their sits and it got to 10 - 9 - 8 every body was shouting the numbers counting down with it. 7 - 6 - 5 - 4 - 3 - 2 - 1.... 

honestly the film was brilliant and it did the book justice but i will not spoil it for anybody else who has seen it but is reading this now. but seriously if your not a twilight fan go watch this, this will make you turn and you'll see why these films are adored all over the world.

the emotional you'll feel during the first half is that it will make you laugh, smile, happy to see that Bella has got her way in life. but the last half is the most shocking and heart in mouth i have ever felt in a movie, and honestly was just in shock the whole last 45 minutes of the film! 

Go Watch it and Enjoy it! 

Friends or Not?

sometimes i feel like I'm being used, when my suppose to be called 'Friends' have no one else to hang around with. 

like i just know they are bitching about me behind my back, so like do i say something or just let it go on?

this isn't the first time to happen, but when i say something it always ends up to be my fault, so i never win, so what is the point. 

all people are going to do is throw the friendship i offer back in my face, so really to think of it i only have a few people, that i can trust and they trust me. 

its nicer to have few close friends instead of many other immature ones. its cool to have a little group that we can all just chill out and talk, instead of keeping it all to yourself and not being able to share it with someone purely because you don't know if you can trust them. 

but through this year my friends have prove to me and have stuck by me through my darkest moments this year so i love them to pieces. 

and now I'm finally happy, and we just enjoy every moment we get. i guess that's what friends are for right!? 

PS. this is me and my best friend at Prom in July, I'm on the Left and My Best Friend is on the right.

Overrated Faces...

OK, this has been something that has bothered me since day one. 

i don't get why people do this and i don't get why they think it is cool to do it so, now i will explain.

i call it the Four Faces of Facebook. 

You have the pout, you have the peace sign, you have the upper lip and you have the tongue out face.

I'm NOT saying its everyone but it mostly the age range 10-15 when they pose in every photo. and yes i probably have done it a few times (the upper lip, and the tongue and the peace) but I'm older now .... ha ha....

but like it just annoying and now the fact 10-11-12 year olds are now joining facebook they are starting to do the exactly the same, i had some year 6 add me on facebook the other day, like seriously they are 6 years younger than me, i don't want you on my facebook talking how you are watching Cbeebies, like seriously... 

i think facebook seriously needs to sort out these problems as it CLEARLY states that user must be ----> 13 <---- OK get it children. 

and i think parents need to be more aware to. 

OK, so rant over what are your opinions? 

PS. below is a cheeky photo of ME demonstrating some of the faces.

Inspired...

Howdy!
So today i had my photography class and we have started a new project. what we have just started is a project on an Artist called David Hockney.

At the beginning of the lesson as Sir was describing what he will be aiming/looking for and describing briefly who was David Hockney and what he did.

At the beginning i thought this was a project i was going to hate, as i prepare to do portraits/fashion/editorial stuff, so i had to change my mode of working into becoming more artistic. But after i took my photos and printed them, i start collaging them together to make one big image. 

As time progressed and i had more ideas what i wanted and started it and finally got myself into it, my lesson ended but i have to finish it for homework, but i want to show you the piece so far, i got a long way to go i think i have another 7 pages of pictures yet to stick down but here it is!

PS  I know its not much, but as soon as I'm finished i will upload a picture for you all to see!

Controlling Family..

Do you ever feel like your life is trying to be planned out for you?

Its come to my attention in my life at this moment for me trying to figure out what i want to do when i leave school, i have two more years, but have no idea what i want to be or do.

Do i go to University? Do i take a Gap Year, Go Travel and then go to University a year later? or do i go get a full time job and never really know what i want to do?

But lately i feel like my family are trying to pressure me into going into Uni and study courses i don't want to study, it feels like I'm being forced, and i don't want to do it. If i did go to University it would make me the first of my generation of kids in my family to be going as my cousins didn't get high enough grades or choose not to go. so there is a lot of pressure for me and i have absolutely NO IDEA what or who i want to be. 

Do i go down the creative route and do something with my photography what I'm good at and really enjoy? or do i go down the business route like my family want me to and get stuck in an office with a boring routine of working 9 to 5? 

I have no idea and do not think at the age of 16 think that anybody my age would be able to figure who they wont to be, i have wanted to be a lot of things but always grew out of them or discovered that i didn't have the skills or grades to be able to do it. 

So like i was saying I have two years to discover myself and see what i want and to grow up. You may think that 2 years is nothing but if you think of it 2012 has flown past and i will have to start looking at Universities and be choosing courses before i apply next winter. 

I'm growing up to fast and wish time would slow down so i can figure out who i am and who i want to be but life isn't like that, you have to catch up and keep working to you get your goals.